Porcelain and China Dolls,give me one and I've seen them all.

I guess this is goodbye.

2011-02-27T04:50:00.000-08:00

I've decided to leave this blog alone,to start afresh,to forget everything for this blog holds a lot of memories that I hold dear to my heart.
It will still remain here but I won't be updating anymore,I'll be doing so at another blog,the address which i wont be posting here.
Well,catch me if you can~
XOXO.

Red lipstick because I'm hot like that.

2011-02-26T23:03:00.000-08:00

So that you don't miss out on all the fun.

Cos I'm so ber-law-deh kute.

And a couple of XOXO and ey blown kiss ~

2011-02-26T10:05:00.000-08:00

D:Do you think the number of materialistic girls are higher than those that are not?

J: Wait.Are you bored or something.

D:Yea kinda
just answer it

J:Yes! Cos I'm one.
Btw before i answer anymore ques whats the reason for this moronic question?

D:Just answer,Im sincerely asking you

J:So you sincerely pop a moronic question because you're bored?

D:Yup

BLABLABLABLABLABLABLA

J:Comeon,it's the 21st century.How many girls now do you see rather staying at home to cook than to go out to work for an LV bag?

D: Why LV specifically?

J:Its just an example,i meant any branded goods none in particular..

D:Alright

J: Blame it on the undependable 21st century men

D:Explain

BLABLABLABLABLABLABLABLABLABLABLUBBERJUSTINBIEBER

D: GREAT !Morality decreasing.

J:yup told ya guys are getting less and less dependable on

D:hahaha i deny that.

J:too bad you aren't even one

D:yup

J:we should create a livetalk show or smth this can go on forever damn freaking funneh

D:hahahah insanity.

J:you arent even one=not even a man to speak so

D:I don't get that.

J:you're not a man so there's nth for you to deny :)

D:Define Man

J:short hair
not crazy
none AL
skinny
dosent like LV
or any branded goods
no tattoos
dont pop sincere moronic questions outta boredom
yup.thats just abt it.
PPPPPS:THIS IS EVERYTHING HE'S NOT.LOL.

D:For the first few points,Those are just the outer layer.

J:OHHHHHH?crazy is not outer,its an inner,mental problem.

D:i didn't say crazy was outer.I said first few
I didn't say it specifically where it ends

J:oh then just skip the first few till the inner ones yuppedyyup

D:I only got to see 2 - 3 inner

J:whateverssssssss
eh wanna go gym!!!!!!im fat!

BLABLABLABLABLEHHHHHBLOBBLOB

J: quickly arrange i need to shed off my fats.

D: not tomorrow !I'll tell you when i'm free

J:stupid bitch
the fats CAN'T wait.

D:hhahahaha !Next week saturday.

J:im gonna be susan boyle soon
if i dont do smth abt it

D:Shiok!
i can listen to your singing
every night i call you to hear you sing
hahahahaha !

J:wtf i'll become like her but without the great grandma voice
how bt sun?
im booked on sat babe..
D:Should be no problem.
J:okay
see ya babe
stay chio and i'll stay handsome.

D:see you !

J:yay

D:Stay handsome!

J:DUH like always
so handsome me

D:haahhaha
sucks.

J:bye im so handsome
3fok23hfpok
2nfm2vt4bl;jo'2p4g
3fdg5yj;\r4g3tgv5
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D:What you want sia.

J:ps this is to annoy you and get your attention cos im so damn handsome
i cant keep my hands off myself
omg i love myself
bye.

D:hahaha bye !
bye handsome.

Made my day HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2011-02-25T10:11:00.000-08:00

I've just about kicked everybody out of my life now.
God seems to have time management problems whilst planning for the sequence of my life.
Oh well, I WILL SURVIVE! :))))))

2011-01-15T09:14:00.000-08:00

Hi kids I'm back in mummy's house for the weekend and I'm so freaking tired but I'm having gastric now cos I'm really hungry and so I can't sleep but I don't see anything appetizing in the house and im gonna cut my hair tmr again and shop for my new year clothes cos i hate how everything is so last minute even the dance stuffs and all my freaking homework isn't done yet and I stayed in school till nine pm yesterday just to get hollered at by some hysterical attitude problem sec one children which were too dumb to get my sacarsm so ya sec ones nowadays need to see a psychologist and maybe 10 million wake up calls meaning in the form of a kick in their virgin asshole because they have hay-wired brains do they really think that I've some much fugging time to stand their bullcrap cos if it wasn't for the fact that I'm incharge of dance and we're running out of members and also cos some other seniors just go running around playing catching and acting like the spoilt damsel in distress with their boyfriend instead of helping out I wouldnt have to be there standing tan chee kwey's sacarsm fugging hell what girls in cultured dances are more well behaved my foot in this society now being well behaved won't get you anywhere i'ts all about being street smart and getting what you want if not one fine day you're gonna end up in the frigging dumpster wiping the asses of society ohemgee please stay forward and more informed about whats going on in this world you old hag I see that age is really catching up with you just go and die an old virgin with your 'well-behaved' students weeping at your grave cos you were never fucked because all you know is to bribe people over from other dance teams like an under-handed hag you are omg I wanna puke looking at you aneroxic shit and btw yes our girls from our dance team are much more gorgeous than yours and our asses can no way compete with your girls in the guiness book of record for the biggest butts and hips in Asia when they dance they look like they have replacement hips with 10 thousand tonnes of fats hanging off them maybe you should sign up for ''biggest loser asia version'' cos that way we'll get to see who actually CAN have ordinary size asses oh and I think they inherited your stuck up attictude cos we're obviously so much better than them and all they do is turn their noses at us with that cock-fucked faces of theirs omg is this is what being in 'cultured' dance turns you into then I advise parents not to enrol them in it cos their kids might one day just end up FREAKS of nature and ya have a good day and ps the only modern thing about you is the aneroxic part okay all mwahmwah and buhbye I love you all XXXXX.

2011-01-05T04:17:00.001-08:00

HI YAWNYAWNYAWNYAWNYAWN.

2011-01-01T10:36:00.000-08:00

Looking back,I realised how happy and innocent I was about the world then,because I was always protected.
When left to fend for my own,I realise its up to me to make myself happy once again.
Those fabricated lies I've been living in, I'm breaking outta you now. Yes,NOW.

2010-11-30T08:32:00.001-08:00

His foolishness now reminds me of what I once was.

She's a monster,beautiful monster.

2010-11-02T23:10:00.001-07:00

Happy belated Halloween! Sorry for the really late post.

More pics @Fb.
Cheerios!

2010-10-18T09:30:00.001-07:00

Strapless Tube Dress with Sash in MINT from OHSOFICKLE.
NEVER WORN BEFORE,GOT IT AT $28.50 AS I PAID FOR REGISTERED MAIL.
SELLING AT $28 AS IT HAVE NOT WORN IT BEFORE AT ALL,BRAND NEW
Contact me if interested. j.adoreshopping@hotmail.com

2010-10-18T09:16:00.000-07:00

It's another monday night and I'm sipping apple-grape juice which my mum just bought whilst using my laptop on my bed.Life hasn't been any better these days,I guess I need to find my goals..
Sometimes,just sometimes,I wonder if I'm doing the right things,expressing my feelings and treating people the way I feel towards them.And I really mean everyone.
I'm always described as a very expressive person,but why is my pride blocking my way in doing the right things sometimes?
Many a time,I do things that let people down because of my pride and then get bad mouthed behind my back by others.
I don't know why but this seems to drive me even more to do the wrong things because those people have let down my pride as well.
Complicated shit,really.
I am nice to people whom don't deserve it,and vice versa.
What the shit is wrong with me?!

2010-10-08T10:23:00.000-07:00

N's are officially over today baybeh! It's time to burn the books.
Me and LioLove went for a swim today @sengkang cause I heard they've got huge slides!
But the slides were only so-so I guess. Me and LioLove had much more fun splashing about in the pool :)))
I have no idea when's the last time I laughed and smiled as much as I did today. Hehe credits to lioooooooo.
Don't let his innocent face fool you,he's full of crazy antics!
Well,one things for sure ; he didn't try to drown me like how you did @wildwildwet approx 2 years ago. You always put yourself first, you're that selfish and I don't have the slightest idea why I put up with you for so long.
I always thought I liked bad boys.
Probably it's because it's a refreshing change or I've gotten all my preferences screwed up cause I wasn't in the right mind in the past or something, but GUESS WHAT.
I DON'T ANYMORE. Well alls well that ends well, TGFL.
Okay,I think I probably got that idea from TGIF. but whatever.

Ooooh and we're thinking of going to sentosa on sunday, but it's not confirmed yet.
Still contemplating if I should cause I prefer swimming in the night like today as....
Swim @night= NO TAN!!!!!!!!
I can't believe I've just realised this when I like swimming so much now!!
*Smacks head and falls sideways.
Anwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww......
SHOPPING TRIP TOMORROW!Hehe.
After tomorrow pocket confirm got big hole.
Nb.
Anw, Baby's gonna cook @my house this thursday! Can't wait to get a glimpse(or should I say taste?It's as fascinating to watch as to eat!) of his culinary skills.

Random photos

Oh and Find this damn hilarious so I submitted this to the TODAY paper! HAHAHA.

Even more cute and hilarious random photoss from his birthday 2 months ago.

Okay ciaooooooooz, am dead tired from all the swimming today.

2010-09-26T03:53:00.001-07:00

Fuck last minute mugging and fuck online shopping,its dragging my attention away from my studies.
fmlfmlfml.
My mum isn't helping either,but after N's , NO MORE FUCKING SHIT ALREADY MUM.

Back to mugging.I hope.

ps:Am craving for tom yum :( anyone willing to make a home delivery foc? I haven't eaten lunch and its already 7pm :(

OH BAYBEH SMILE FOR ME SMILE FOR MEHHH

2010-09-06T03:43:00.000-07:00

Whenever I listen to somebody to love,I think of my sweetest lion :D
Actually,I think of him whenever I listen to Justin Bieber's songs.
See la,who ask him go have Justin Bieber hair,lol WTF.
AND,I don't like JB,I only like his songs that remind me so much of this big cat.
Rawr rawr your bad romance la....SI PUI EH !:)
HEHE KTHXBAI MWAHMWAH.
.....

Oh I almost forgot, introducing Lion's littlest bro,Small Cat.Or should I say the smallest cat in the house.

So awesomely cute,yes?
Meowmeow.
ohokayreallybyenow.

xx

2010-08-18T06:26:00.000-07:00

Life is great,God is good.
How could you melt this barrier and break through my resilience which I was so determined to keep with your sweetness?
How could you just come with your mesmerizing smile which I always tried to ignore,sweep me off my feet when you were so quiet the entire time whilst everyone else was doing stunts and carrying each other and gave the excuse to my friends,saying that you wanted to demo the ways to carry a girl on that day @rc?
Everyone was so shocked.

Sweets ? I don't them anymore seriously.

Everyday I bring the sun around,
I sleep away the clouds.
Love,please smile for me,SMILE FOR MEEEEE:]

I surprised myself when I just realised today that I hadn't even bothered seeing what you were up to nowadays;I guess you don't matter anymore.
I don't even need to write much,cos I don't even give a shit about you anymore.

OH AND AFTER N'S I WONT HOLD BACK ANYMORE,ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HEHE KTHXBAI.

2010-08-05T22:28:00.000-07:00

Okay so I know I've been neglecting this blog A LOT.
So is my twitter,people's always asking me to use it again,but I've lost the password and I'm kinda lazy to go create another one so yeah..probably when I've time.

Actually I'm here to dedicate some posts to some very awesome people in my life and I hope those awesome people get to read this !

This is to Linda Mummy and Jessica Jiejie

Mummy,although you've obligations no more, you still took me in as another daughter of yours and gave me what my own mum could never give. Even when the relationship between me and your son is souring day by day, you'd still point it out when he's in the wrong though he's your own blood son and I'm not related to you in anyway. It is difficult for most parents to be unbiased in judgements when it comes to their own children.
Many a time I ask myself why aren't I losing control of myself,aren't letting myself waste away anymore since . But I've just realized that it's because before I do anything,I'd think about what you said,and those words were what enabled me to get by these days. Time heals wounds,but no one expected me to bounce back that quickly. I teared the last time we had a long talk,but when you saw me on wednesday I no longer did,even when we talked about sensitive stuff . That's because I no longer carried a burden on myself,that smile truly came from within.No pretence.
Yes,I might take longer to love,laugh,cry now.I might be more resilient to these things than before,but at the very least,I'm not longer bitter about everything else.
My life has been shit this past 2 months,and I'm not afraid to say it.
But the birthday celebration I had with you and jiejie,ignited warmth from somewhere within me.The feeling is so unfamiliar,yet so fuzzy and happy. I don't really know how to explain that feeling.
Mummy,you're also darned cute! Do you remember what happened on the bus on wednesday?Everybody was smiling at me after you left,even the bus driver. Do you believe that I skipped on the way home that day? You made me feel like the luckiest girl on earth,you gave me love and I love you even more for that !<3 Thank you Linda Mummy.

Jiejie,I know we weren't really close in the past,partly because we didnt have a chance to really talk and cause I gave you the impression that I was still a young girl then. But I'm happy that till now you'd still let me call you jiejie even though the situation is at this state now. Thank you for the surprise cake and the laughs.

Shi Ning,
You treat me best amongst all my friends. Friends like you are one in a million and thank you so much for doing so much for my birthday!
Also not to mention Tay Zhi An,Ryan Lim,Lin Hoyu, Christabel Lim, Cai Yu,Huang Shi Ning, Adrian Chia,Jeremy Hong,Philip Choon, Bethia Wee,Kelvin Yeo,Jhonson Chang,Nithi and Ms Ang for the lovely camera ! THANK YOU PEOPLE! I was so shocked you people got me a camera for my birthday! Esp people whom I least expected to get a present from;you know who you are! ;)

Felfel<3
Felicia,my most awesome cool bitch! Thanks for being like an older sister and always being there for me,whatever time of the day.Thanks for the lingerie,HAHAHA.
Love ya <3

Anw, here to update on my birthday too.
Last friday,met up with Fel for dinns for my favourite Tom Yum @Ajisan !

Ksuites with Bethia last saturday was truckloads of fun! There was only 2 of us in one big room complete with a huge sofa bed,PS3, 4 mikes,a computer,headphones,webcam and endless amount of food. We used the blankets and rolled around like sushi! LOL.
Bethia,

Jeremy and co complained that I didn't jio them celebrate @ksuites,so went to sing K @ksuites again.
We had a blast,sing till freaking high man.
I shall let the pictures do the talking ;)
I'm not uploading all though,the rest's in FB.

HAHA GAY!

When we were at Qi's wedding last friday,me and jeremy were talking about how fast times flies. It seemed not too long ago that Qi and all of us were in sec 1,running around,caling each other's names and pinching the guys when they disturbed us with funny names.In a blink of an eye,Qi's already getting married. I miss the old times.
Qi,I wish you and Dave all the best and everlasting love.

Compare the top pic and this bottom one,we all look so different. The one below was what? 3 plus years ago? Oh the xiao lianzxz days,WTF.
When I've time I'll upload more old photos alright? I can look and laugh at the old photos till tomorrow morning man.

Alright thats all,I'm fucking lazy to uplolad the rest.
It's gonna be hectic for me for the next few weeks.
AH WHATEVER.
KTHXBYE.

2010-08-01T08:03:00.000-07:00

IDK WHAT I SHOULD GET FOR MY BIRTHDAY :/

2010-07-26T02:36:00.001-07:00

The question isn't if you know this song,it's whether you understand and have been through every single word that's sung,and that it had broken your heart to pieces.I used the term 'had' for the simple reason that,you are past tense as well.

2010-06-29T04:17:00.000-07:00

http://entertainment.howstuffworks.com/august-5-birthday-astrology.htm
Damn cool,like 90% true WTF.
Go check out your own birthday!

2010-06-29T02:08:00.000-07:00

Picking up the pieces,taking them with me and moving on.
Slowly,but steadily and surely.
Never ever hurt the ego of a Leo. Pride, ego and vanity are some of the bags Leo's always carry with them.
That's what I warned you about and now you've crossed that line.

2010-06-28T20:27:00.000-07:00

"So nice to people,for what?"

2010-06-23T09:36:00.000-07:00

I am thankful that on this day 22 years ago, Auntie Linda brought you to this world .
I am thankful because she had given me the best thing that has ever happened in my life; you.
On this day, I wish you a Happy birthday my love.
I hope luck and love follows you everywhere .

XXX

2010-06-22T06:24:00.000-07:00

Do you actually love him more than I ?
I would gladly burn in hell for him .

2010-06-20T20:52:00.000-07:00

I want so much to be able to say the words in bold out loud,I want so much to scream them to the world,want so much to stare you in the eye and tell you I love you no more and that I'm so darned sure with the utmost confidence and determination,but I can't; not yet at least, and I hate that.

Over you by Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Please,I want to say them so badly.I want so much to feel better,I want so much to not feel like I wanna pull my guts out every single day and every living breath I've taken since you left cause it hurts so much and I dont know what to think.
Im torn in between;I love you and yet I hate you as much.
Love and hate only has a thin line acting as a border in between and sometimes I fall over that line and sometimes I don't.
Everyday after I've pulled my hair,dried my eyes of tears and behaved like a darned lunatic that I'd never thought I'd be in this life, I always come to no conclusion and that sucks the most;having no idea which direction to go.
I don't know what you're truly thinking,don't know which way to go to accomodate you and accomodate myself at the same time;I'm stuck.
I want so much to be with you always,even if it means being a wandering spirit like what Shayne Ward is in the 'No promises' video;at least I'd get to watch over you.

Shit,this is fucking insanity.
All I want is to be happy again.
Why can't I be granted this.
Why can't I just get knocked on the head and lose my memory just this once.
This is your permmission grant,for anyone who hates me out there and has wanted so much to lay your hands on me all these years.
I'd thank you for this once.

2010-06-20T20:36:00.000-07:00

When love happens; it is so incredibly messy. People around you can’t comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can’t see. They can’t see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you’re in love. It’s inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can’t live without it. What you don’t learn is how hard love is. How much work it takes. How much of ourselves we have to put into it. How it isn’t worth it until we are complete and utter idiots about it.

I'm sorry that I've been a fool,an idiot,and a lunatic for you.
Forgive me.

It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything & nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

Let me do without insanity for once,it's ripping me apart and it hurts more than it actually looks.Please.

2010-06-19T09:26:00.000-07:00

My feelings truly,the tombstone she holds in the end represents my heart,I'll always be there no matter what.

2010-06-18T05:18:00.000-07:00

Airplanes-I agree with Bridget;Travis Garland sang it better.
And Ps:He's hot!

2010-06-15T03:22:00.000-07:00

Today as I was looking out of the window, taking a breather from work, I saw 3 bubbles float up from somewhere below my block , slowly making their way up towards the clouds. They brightened up my day tremendously , floating steadily yet looking like such wonders with all the colours of the rainbow reflecting in their fragile yet perservering walls as they made their way up to heaven without bursting. My eyes trailed their path all the way up against the vast blue skies till they appeared not more than a speck from the spot I was at, and unconsciously, I was smiling all the way and I didn't realize it till I spotted my reflection in the television as I turned away from the window. I never realized, that it took me leaving to appreciate the world at a slower pace. It showed ne that life without you did not spell
end of the world, beautiful things still exist, just like that 3 bubbles that brought a smile just as large as when I think of you on my face.No more rushing and crying, no more thinking the worst but only realizing how vast the skies are and always will be for both you and me . I'm grateful for this time and space that you have given to me for myself to think many things through. Just then I thought to myself if this was a sign from God; to take everything slow and easy because in the end, whatever that is meant to be yours will be, and it dosent matter if shit happens . Same likewise if it wasn't meant to be yours, no matter how I'd love or what I'd do won't change a thing.
Perhaps with me not sticking around, life will probably be better for you , just like how it is for me now.
Probably, we both just need a breather to sort our lives out without each other .

And I'd just like to let you know that I'd keep the promise you wanted me to give; that I'd never forget you and if you happen to look back, you'd always see me there, ready to break all your falls ; the invisible girl in your life, and that you need not look for me,I'd
always be there.This, I promise you, love.

I finally realized this, even if all it took was 3 bubbles to set me thinking. Thank you God.

2010-06-14T13:04:00.000-07:00

Sis,
You can try your hardest. you can do everything. and say everything. But sometimes, people aren’t worth trying over anymore. they aren’t worth worrying about. It’s important to know when to let someone go when they’re letting you down.
-Bridget <3

2010-06-06T08:00:00.000-07:00

I never thought this day would come.
I want so much to slap myself for being so stupid .
I ought to make a fuss, ought to leave .
But I just love you too much to let go, I'm a fool for you .
I foresee many hard nights ahead, with high chance of no result.
Nevertheless,don't give up Janessa , you can make it through.

2010-05-31T16:54:00.000-07:00

Today :
8-11 : classes in school.
2pm-5pm: dance
8-9/9plus: ballet
10pm: dinner
11 plus: reach home to sleep for the rest of my life.

It's the fucking June holidays and I should be sleeping at home(I'm still sick) or out in the shops instead of waking myself god damn early for school and getting more black eye rings . I'm starting work soon and I haven't had enough rest yet.

On a brighter note, lots of dancing today !!!!!!! :))))))))
Hehe going for class now.

2010-05-28T04:32:00.000-07:00

Hello world.
I've lost me voice,and now I can't scream!
Oh damn.
The tiny bit of voice I still have left is so arousing, like sexy only.
WTF I know.
This kind of voice,go out scare people only.
G still wanna bring me out,tsk tsk.

Oh and my maid's finishing her contract in august,and G might be bunking in with me from then on.
Weetohweet.
&she wants to continue our magical-growing dick thing.
OhEmGee,someone kill her please, many thanks ;)
When men screw up ,turning lesbian is really appealing though.
Eh nono,don't kill her yet, I might need to fuck her first.
*Bursts into laughter,but with no sound coming out of my mouth cos I've lost my voice(like a silent comedy show = very retarded.

Anw,am gonna update with pixxx.
Love me lots for that, will ya?
Heeheeeeee.
Me and Christina ;

Hahahaha,nonsense again..

ICE MONSTER ! *drooling in process.

Hahaha,the old days of only being able to see the eyes when taking photos.

2010-05-23T02:16:00.000-07:00

For you.

Try by Asher Book

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave meThe world is catching up to you
while you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough
if I sing you a song would you sing along
or wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you
while your running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

but I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above
If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me

2010-05-22T06:47:00.000-07:00

You're ambitious,full of plans and dreams,and you won't fail any of them but me.

2010-05-20T19:31:00.000-07:00

I'm giving recess a miss to save some $$$ , blogging here from my iPhone as a result of having too much time on
my hands now. Oh yes,to cut the story short ,I lost my samsung f480 on Monday on a bus,daddy called just in time the next day to
ask me if I wanted to upgrade my phone,and he got me a new phone.Surprisingly on the next day , some kind soul returned my lost phone to the school's general office despite me losing it outside of school. Thank God I got my old phone back,or my mum's gonna nag me silly.Dad was such a sweetie,not giving me an earful when I told him about it .I love you daddy ;p

Anyway, I still need to save a lot of money,for iPhone accesories,I need to get a cover,screen protector and ideally a portable phone charger since it runs out off battery pretty fast. I used a lot of my pocket
money to shop last week and I'm running out of cash soon,need to get a job asap.Zzz.
Life sucks ttmx recently,some
kind soul please bring a little happiness back to my life thank you.

Meeting Christina this weekend,can't wait ;)

Tataaaaaaaaaaa.

2010-05-17T02:18:00.000-07:00

Today's a real fucked up one.
Mishaps after mishaps.
Inhuman and dishonest fuckers one after another.
Dear God,what the fuckxzx do you want from me?
I think I'll just lock myself up in Shining's house today,to keep on the safe side.
Life's no bitchier than today.
God's out to make a fool out of me.

2010-05-14T05:49:00.001-07:00

Blogshop just updated,please do take a look and comment if interested:)

2010-05-05T06:15:00.000-07:00

Exam after exam is coming up and I've not really been touching my books.
Well,my next exam slip won't be that pretty I guess.

Are friendships that short-lived and vulnerable? I still can't bring myself to believe that,after the efforts I've made.
I've really tried.
Oh well,it takes two hands to clap,even friendship-wise.

.... I'm tired,
Toodles.

2010-04-30T03:42:00.000-07:00

Yours truly misses Zac Pang.

You're such a manipulating hot ass my dear.
I'm jealous and also,
am totally smitten with you.

2010-04-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

It's happening again and I'm afraid.

OH AND WOON'S A BITCH WITH PMS DAMNIT.
OBNOXIOUS ONE TOO.

2010-04-27T07:49:00.001-07:00

I'm beat.
I just got home not too long ago,was out whole day with Samphat and I promised her I won't be late again.
Haha,I know my stupid habit is gonna kill me one day.
Sentosa was a blast,and we got a job together.
Our manager's super nice,though he's not in-charge of our outlet.
Photo spam,sun-tanning obssession,complaining about fat people causing a tsunami in the water,guys 'pubic hair' floating around,retard pix and antics,scaring people on the tram as we walk past with our retarded eye antics and running to and fro from the beach to the sea,you name it.
And surprisingly,we wore bikinis of almost the same design and colour today.
Not intentional I swear.Hahahaha.
Anyway,I've got a dance audition tomorrow,stressed,afraid that I won't do well.
Well,I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Wish me luck! ;P
Pix will be posted up soon on fb and probably here,couldn't upload the pix as my cam ran out of battery.
Irritating ttmx,I know.
Oh and I'm starting work next week!
Totally random but still,it's an update.

Oh and you know what we learnt today?
We learnt that fat people with big tummies and big boobs like to go to the really deep parts of the sea so that they'll hide they're flaws but show off their assets at the same time.
Kinda creative but deceiving,don't you think?

2010-04-26T02:24:00.000-07:00

"Life's a bitch,so just suck it up", as quoted by Grace Ngiam.

Have been meeting Grace for talk-cock and super act retard sessions.
Grace says I like to act super retarded(bitch stop quoting words from your EG) and its annoying her.So much for being Santa Claus and bringing laughter to your life.
Damnit you bitch,you're so ungrateful.
As punishment I shall eat more plums on your bed the next time I go to your house,and I'll choose the ones with lots of white powder.
Bwahahaha.
Anw,I didn't get a chance to take pix with her,I forgot and I doubt she likes to take lots of pix like me.
Hehe.
Went home and cam-whored with Prycepryce,he's super cute and btw I just clipped the hair on the top of his head with my red clip,he looks super ah gua now I swear.
Was supposed to go job hunting with that samphat today,but some stuffs cropped up.
Oh and I did my first chinese compo for this year today(random I know but still).
Can't believe I've been so fucking lazy for my chinese assignments,me hate chinese ttmx.
And I'm gonna remove my tagboard soon,I'm tired of uninvited comments on my blog.
Wanna comment,use your fucking blogger account to express to me any of your grieviences then.I think I shall go delete it now.
Tsk,David?
Who do you think you are,King David of Isreal?
David's a super random name if thats the best you can come up with,tsk tsk.
Sorry,YPs aren't my cup of tea .

Anw,ytd while I was walking to the bus stop with Grace from her house,we saw 2 legs at a window.Scare the shit out of us,then we began laughing,cause we realised it was
some poor kids legs leaning against the window cause He was lying on the sofa,humming to himself/watching tv/whatever.
Super funny shitzxzx.
Can you see his legs?Sorry for poor quality of pic, was trying to take it unnoticed cause his dad just suddenly popped out from no where .

Pixxxxxxxxxx,

Lotsa more pix from yesterday on my camo but I'm lazy to upload the rest,heehee.
Got lotsa freaking overdued pix as well.
Stay tunedddddddd.
<3

2010-04-19T03:21:00.000-07:00

Freaking funny ttmx.
Dialogue:My bro's.
http://www.xtranormal.com/watch/6428695/

2010-04-17T19:51:00.000-07:00

Friday's speech day performance;
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/video/video.php?v=382412996831&ref=mf

2010-04-10T03:44:00.001-07:00

Oh and Jonjeeeeeeeeeee Fong,beloved brother of mine,sorry I couldn't make it to your performance today,am busy deciding my future path :)
Meloveyyou,mylittleJonjeeeeeee Fong.

2010-04-10T03:16:00.000-07:00

BBkins, I'll promise you that though this status is just temporary,I'll live up to your expectations and requirements,to be a better partner,a better person,the best girl to be worthy of you in the future.
I've finally sort out my thinking,sorry for all the fuss,I just needed assurance.
And now that I've got your assurances,I'll work hard for me,for you,for us.
This is not a breakup,but for better opportunities and a better future for both.
You have to work hard too alright,you're gifted but you haven't been putting it into good use this few years,I've got confidence in your first million target.
Like what you said,let's go rock the world with each other in our hearts.
Cheers to the future baybeh!

XX

2010-04-04T05:16:00.001-07:00

Anyway,am happy with the open relationship thingy.
Don't get me wrong,both of us are ;)
Meanwhile,no-lifes out there whom are getting their hopes high,I'll just let you on a little secret and perhaps crush your hopes shall I? Our relationship is even stronger now,cause we're bonding more and are more open-minded since this is what an open-relationship's supposed to do,so don't even think of trying all sorts of means to pry him away from my side ;>
At first,it was hard to adapt to.But now,not only is he my friend and boyfriend with no commitments,he's an even closer confidante as well.
Changes a lot of things as well as giving each other a breather.
I hope I'll be what you want me to be in years to come and achieve what we both want to acheive from this decision.
I hope that in years to come,walking down the aisle will be both me and you and not some other party.
Like what you said,though not physically attached,but emotionally attached,always.
For this 2 years that we've given each other,I trust you and hope you trust me as well.
I love you.

2010-04-04T04:38:00.000-07:00

Ironic.
I congratulate you for attaining a bitch degree and yes,you score points for ignorance cause ignorance is bliss.

2010-04-03T07:02:00.000-07:00

Just updated my blogshop ya guys.
Check it out anytime soon alright!
Do support ;)

2010-04-01T08:55:00.000-07:00

Watch this video,awesome dance moves in it,mix of every genre of dances.
This was one of the songs we danced to for Ngee Ann City and will be performing for speech day.

2010-04-01T07:49:00.001-07:00

To view pics :
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=188995&id=716544001&saved#!/album.php?aid=188995&id=716544001

Look at what my little brother can do while standing up.(Gymnasts will always do what they do best,though now he isn't in gym anymore.He's way more flexible than me,why the hell are all the guys around me more flexible than me?BBZ can do a split! &#^&*^(&)
Ironic that I'm calling him little when he's much taller than me.
Genes are unfairly distrubuted,too bad.
My uncles are all like 1.81m .
I'm shortttttttttttttt.Damndamn.
Got more of my Daddy's genes;Big eyes,height,nose,legs,skin tone,blah .
Bro and sis has more of my mummy's genes,generally;fairer,height that reaches up to the stars,a bag of bones,small eyes,smaller nose etc. I look freaking different from both of them.I.AM.FAT.
Anyone who's interested for the link from the dance performance at Ngee Ann city,tag me :>

2010-03-31T08:06:00.000-07:00

I'll not be updating this space here on a regular basis anymore due to time constraints.
Updates will be more on Fb.

Loves <3

2010-03-27T06:41:00.000-07:00

That's a bit rich coming from someone who's got not an inch of inner beauty whatsoever.

2010-03-22T07:46:00.000-07:00

A song I'm addicted to and can totally relate to.
For you,dedicated to the special you.(whoever you might think you are).
I hope I need not say more.

Ignorance by Paramore(Farisah's fav band,hahahahahaha)

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore

Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well, sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

We're the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it

The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

Yeah, we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

2010-03-19T09:41:00.001-07:00

This is so freaking cute!
I don't know if the 'puppy's voice is authentic or not,but all I know is that it's so incredibly adorable!
And look,it's the same breed as my litle one,Pryce Fong !
Yes,it's a papillon!
Listen to the sound it makes,damn cute I swear!

Reminds me of my little one when he was still a puppy,irresistably cute.

2010-03-19T08:43:00.000-07:00

Heggo Moo cows.
This post here dedicated to the girls from dance.
The 2 performances went smoothly(without the stupid rain soaking our bloody dance shoes though),and everyone did great!
Here's one of the photos,I'll post the rest of the pics another time;)

Meanwhile,spot me!I'm the one who was pointing my feet really hard (cause Miss Kelly said it'll look better in the photos as a dancer),but my feet got cut off from the pic accidentally,what a waste.(oh and I wasn't looking down intentionally,just happened to look down when she took it.Nice effect though,isn't it?) ;)
Hahahaha.
But nevertheless,I'm not complaining,cause I really appreciate the fact that Shi Ning for coming to support me and helping us take all the pics!
Thank you ,girl! ;)

Loveloves <3

2010-03-19T01:58:00.000-07:00

Hey allllll.
Sorry for the super lack of update here,have been really busy this week again.
This week was fun though,dance performances at Ngee Ann this past few days were alright,some had said were coming but couldn't make it ):
Nevertheless,thanks for the support and even for those who didn't turn up,it's the thought that counts,really :)
Finally met up with Da Yan after my the performance on wednesday, it was freakin' fun .
I was doing lots of stupid stunts on the streets,like dancing suddenly and waving at people posing as statues though I knew they wouldn't respond to me.
Da Yan swore that I'm hyper active and crazy but I think it's really fun though.
Hahahaha.
I have a tendency to 'zi high' without any alcholic drink/special occassion.
Life's all about enjoying it and being yourself,no ? ;)
I don't have pics with me now,but I assure you,when I get them it'll be pictures GALORE.
Hahaha.
Well,I'd better get back to finishing up my F&N and stop slacking(as said by BBZ =.=).
Goodbye kaypos.

2010-03-11T05:01:00.000-08:00

Dance Camp tomorrow babies!
Still gotta go packpackpackpack.
I hadn't had enough energy for dance today,think cause I've been dancing too hard every lesson,and eating lesser and lesser to save money.
Cramp,Gastric, all comes together in a full package.
What to do,this is the life of us girls.
I miss Zac(sounds like jack,coincedence)Darson and Debbie Chew veryvery much thank you.
We've planned lotsa activities and stuffs for the coming week,but I guess I can't make it for some of them,remedials and last minute stuffs popping out suddenly,I've not even had tuition for this week yet and its already ending!
Hectic schedule.
But a hectic life is a fun and meaningful one,cause I know that it's all helping me progress in life.
Dance,studies and playing hard at the same time.
Looking forward to it !
I've kinda neglected my studies recently,gotta pull myself together after the hols,cause my hols are already packed.
After dance camp am supposed to meet debbie for baking,sentosa,ballet,dance performance for 2 days,supposed to meet up with Da Yan this week,tuitions(plus make-up tuitions for this week &^%*&_$^#@#!@!!!!!!!!)clear up the rest of my F&N coursework,file my worksheets for every subject and many more to come.
Good grief,am sweating as I write this(come on,look at everything I have piled up for my well deserved holiday!),I shall have a GOOD rest when I come back from camp.
It might seem little,but trust me,every week like this can make you go bonkers.
In a good way for me,though it's tiring to a new level.
Have not been this busy since I was in Raffles.
Anyway,I think I sprained myself today during dance.
Oh the pressure,espcially when dance performance's next week already.
Nevertheless,pain or no pain,I'm still loving dance lessons,every single one of it.
Anyway,missy here has to go pack now,have not packed my bag for camp tomorrow!
&^(^*)*%$(*)*&%^!!
And yes,shit I've still got english homework on the 18th century Castrati.
Fascinating topic but an outrageously disgusting fact of history.
I shall not go into the details,you might cringe.
Though,it's weirdly fascinating.
I guess I've got a sadist streak in me,a little like Ms Ang.
But Ms Ang's way more sadist.
Hahahaha.
Anyway,
NIGHTNIGHT I LOBE YOU.!
*Cringes at act-twit language.

2010-03-08T05:46:00.000-08:00

Hellooooo Babies.
This is gonna be a real fast one,update update!
Dance training's gonna be occupying my time for this entire week all the way till sunday.
Yes,you're right,tuesday,wednesday,thursday,friday,saturday and performance on the 17th and the 18th.
Welcome Janessa,to the 'The busy-bee who needs 25 hours a day' club.
25hours25hours25hours25hours.
Enjoying it throughly though,just need to plop onto my pillows for some well-deserved rest to get me through the next week.Ahhh, bliss.....
OHWAIT, It's just popped into my mind that I've got some maths homework to finish,since I was busy tongue-lashing certain profound sacarsms and degrading names and vulgarities to dear old SOS and friend,Singapore's first president's illegitimate son,Yusoff,during math class today and had put off my math homework till now.
Ah,the joy of being able to express yourself,in my case,enthusiasm of putting down worthless mouth-twitchers in the name of sacarsm.
Oh who,oh who created sacarsm?I must pay a tribute to that great saint.
Saint of sacarsm.Ohmyholycow.SOS again ?!
Ohhhhhh get off my head!
I shall start on my humble homework now,
But please don't step over my head now just cause I'm eating humble-pie.
The fire in this fiery Leo from the previous encounter has not been put out yet,you'd better be on your toes.
In the mean time, vair,vair over-dued photos coming right up.
I miss Farisah,Christina,Debbie Chew and Grace Ngiam.
I want to see you all soon !!
Espeially DEBBIE CHEW FOR BALLET TOMORROW !
You're featured in the pics coming right up babe ;)
Oh and definately not to mention my sizzling hot babe-magnet,ZAC PANG AKA MY JACK DARSON(is it spelt this way?)!
Life's a bore without you,you'd better meet me soon or my life might just be lacking certain colours without your presence!
Ahhh,cheesy crap coming from me.
Alas,it's an old habit of mine ;)
Till then,homework's first on the list now!
Byeeeee fellas.

This sweet couple is the second most sweetest Jack and Rose Darsons I know.
If I hadn't known such a romantic babe-magnet like Zac Pang,I might even be envious.

2010-03-01T05:24:00.000-08:00

Since you know I'm talking about you,and I know you're talking about me,what's with all the pretence ?
I'm sorry to tell you this, but you initiated it when you insulted my loved one indirectly,to clarify you though.
Just grow some balls+guts and stop all the fake shits and get on with this game you wanna play man.
Losers who're urinating in their pants cause they're afraid they're qualifications can't beat mine for this year N's.
Ohmy.
If you've grown some balls after this than I'll see you when the N's results are out.
If not, Hasta la vista baybeh.

2010-02-28T06:53:00.000-08:00

Shut up and learn
Grow up and focus
Be smart, don't act smart

Rant what you want, Guest, passerby and others.
I have got dozen better things to do rather than talking and blogging about this now.
In any case, let the facts speak for itself and the evidence to prove itself when the N's results are out =)
That's the time where you guys can be cocky .
Till then, shut up and maybe, CRY =')

Take care and good night! :)

*I really hope that i am proven wrong, let me be wrong, give me a chance to be wrong alright =)

2010-02-26T06:11:00.001-08:00

There are times,when I really feel so annoyed by certain brainless chaps.
Talk,very big.
Talk,also never process in the brain first then announce loudly to the world of what they think.
Your latest news,travel really 'fast'.
If you're a top student from a top school in Singapore,then congratulations,you have all the right to condemn any school that you think isn't worthy of you.
But you're not,FULLSTOP
So,where does that leave you?
I'm not condemning you either,but are you worthy of the school that you proclaim 'lousy' so loudly about?
Has it ever occured to you,if any of the tertiary schools in Singapore want you?(Ya,go pay private schools then,I know your parents are filthy rich,if that makes you feel better.Don't you know,money has the last say.Some people still work hard for it,will you?)

I know that you know who I'm talking about,and I know that more brainless chaps are going to start gossiping and talking about it and not to mention, say, "Oh there goes Janessa and her complaining and offending of people on her blog again."
HA.My statements ain't without evidence.
And if you think what I'm typing here is in the utmost displeasure to you and you feel uneasy that I'm saying that your thinking is freaking immature,then please be my guest and ask any qualified people if what Í'm saying is even less of your curent maturity with this statement.
I mean seriously,it's now 2010.
No longer 2008.
Keep up with the times,not just by flaunting your parents' hard earned money to others but also by upgrading your brain processing skills.

Last but not least to you, talk is cheap.
To prove yourself, you gotta walk the talk.

Missed me?

2010-02-22T06:50:00.000-08:00

Now where should I start?
Alright,I shall start from how everyone's been telling me how much I've neglected this blog of mine which I've always updated so frequently in the past.
Well readers,missed me?
It's been a long time since I've sat down and posted a full entry with pictures and all.
Life's just been really hectic,you can't blame me.
This year's a really busy one for me.
No more fooling around,no more time to go out except for weekends and sometimes my weekends are even taken up by my tuition when my weekdays are fully packed and I have to postpone it.
I've got lots of pics to upload,gonna upload some today :)
I miss blogging so very much.
And I'm currently sick now,down with all sorts of crazy things.
I truly detest it when I'm unwell,I ain't one whom can take pain and suffering.
I want to be well,dance carefreely again!
I haven't got dance for a week already,thank gooness for ballet tomorrow.
But judging by how horrible I feel now,I'm beginning to have doubts as to whether I can make it there tomorrow.
Argh.
Well,some pics,as promised ;)
I know it's rather little as compared to how dedicated I was to blogging in the past and posts were filled with lots of photos,but please make do with it,will update soon again ;)

Me and Christina Sweetie,this was a month back if I'm not wrong.

Sweetie,I miss you a lot :( When are we meeting again?! :<

New year's eve with Baby(love his new hair-do,suits him a lot.But not the colour though!),

First day of new year(lots of pics still with my cousin,will get them soon),
Spastic brother of mine.

I love wearing different variety of clothes and for me,it would go according to what kind of style that I felt like going with on that day itself.
I avoid wearing too much black(you can tell by my pictures) but ironically,I bought lots of black clothing for new year.Hmmm,wrong colour for new year but I felt like wearing black on that day then. Like I said,I follow what I feel like wearing on that day itself,not intentional.(sorry grandparents/uncles/aunts/whoever who's old,but I didn't mean to wear an inauspicious colour,and yes I've long grown out of that 'everything black' age/thinking/type,well obviously!)My cousin always says that whenever she sees me I owuld have changed my style.But I told her that I have no certain style,I wear what I think is nice,trend or no trend.That's whats so interesting about not sticking of just one certain type look/colour/style,everyday is a different thing,pleasing to both you and others ;)

Day two of new year(spastic camwhores in the car),

Love the ring.

Okay,so my brother's got lots of spastic faces,wins me hands down totally.

That's a sweet on her tongue btw if you're wondering,

Day three(change look again,hahahaha),

The very huge stitch(christmas edition,renamed Snowy by yours truly ;) ) Baby surprised me with when I went to his house for dinner !
Baby caught it in 3 tries ;)
Biggest Baby he's caught for me :p
But Baby's sis said can get in thailand for less than $5 T.T
Anyway,thanks Love!
I love it! :D

I'm trying to look as if Snowy's obssessed with me.More like how I'm obssessed with him..Ha! Warning:many attempts.

Okay,I look like a freakin small kid here but whatever.

Oh and finally after washing up and getting ready for bed,I camwhored with my macdonalds pajamas(named macdonald by me and my cousin cause of the colour but I think it's damn cute and unique ;P Laugh all you want,I like it.Anyway,like it for sleep only,it's real comfy its cuteeeeee).

And finally,good night !

2010-02-12T20:31:00.000-08:00

Dance yesterday was awesome.
Though it wasn't my best performance,I still enjoyed it though :)
And I finally smiled on stage.Like finally.
And that was the result of the cheers and encouragement from the audience below,thank you!
I'll update another time,I've got reunion dinns ;ater ;)

2010-01-29T22:30:00.000-08:00

Now's your turn to have a good laugh at this videos !
I laughed till I had stiches all over last night ;P
Once again,introduced by my brother to more absurd videos on videos.
Anybody out there who's interest is watching rubbish but funny videos on youtube 24/7?
You and my brother will get along well like long-lost friends from another life then.
Enjoy! ;)

Will be meeting BBZ later,
toodles !

2010-01-27T06:18:00.000-08:00

Me and SeeKee at her birthday chalet.
Happy belated birthday sweet,and sorry for the late wish ! ;)

I was sneezing and sniffing all the way in school today,all due to my sinus.
Sucks man,don't want to elaborate how sick I felt today.
Nevertheless,I didn't want to go sick bay or whatsoever lest my teachers sent me home cause I still had dance after school and I was so looking forward to dance(like I always do,when has there been lesson which I don't look forward to dance,no matter what kind of dance?) !
So i held on(oh not really actually,I slept during F&N and SS today,and both teachers were so understanding cause they knew I was not feeling well,thank you!:) ), and my body felt as if as I had no sugar in my body and i desperately needed to munch on something sweet and I had finished my Nimm2 sweets ): Fucking gaybirds,why do we upper sec have such a late recess almost everyday(only friday different lor),why can't they push up the lower sec's recess like what they did last time?! Losers,they suck ballz man.I practically had no energy before recess lor.
And please,before any accusing finger comes my way,I DO eat my breakfast(at least I've gotten into this good habit since the beggining of the year),a healthy breakfast which includes the staple food;bread.So don't come wagging your finger and nag saying that it's our own fault for not having breakfast in the morning and getting all hungry much before break time.I still go add extra honey stars(<3!) cause I scared not enough lor.Grrr,whatever.
Dance was fun!
Helping the Juniors and everything.
Actually come to think of it,I was the only one helping them for the entire lesson(I mean all the way,not half way).
I mean others may not understand or mentally it's just another way of getting back at our seniors of how they treated us when we were just came in as sec 1s, but thats not the way I do things.
I know how they feel,I have no idea why I get this nagging feeling if I don't help people who need my help.
I mean come on,poor sec 1s who just came in who might have no dance background won't just take initiative to do their best right there and then.
There's something called shyness you know?
Like what Mdm Wong said;-If you don't give them a chance,they'll never have confidence."
You have to give them a little push to boost their confidence,it's not like they've been arrogant or whatsoever.
See why now our dance group does not have the discipline like other dance groups have?
Cause of this stupid problem which has been going on for God-knows how many cycles already,everybody knows it but yet they don't dare to do anything about it.
Cause why?Senior mah,more superior,scared lose face mah.
Tell me,how do you earn people's respect this way?
Don't you feel guilty if one day they don't attend dance regularly just because they don't feel welcome or involved in the dance by you?
Seriously,if this is what the crowd's gonna do,please leave me out of it.
The crowd isn't always right and I'm there to dance,not to make friends or enemies.
Although today was even more hard work then normal training(I just realise teaching is so tiring!), when some of the sec 1s and lower sec who had not attended Cca regularly for the past year suddenly showed a lot of enthusiasm to learn and eagerness for next week's lesson,I knew my hard work was worth it.(You have no idea how tiring it is,repeating jump after jump after jump,like worst then running 2.4 for that short 2 hours or so continuously.) Everybody was happy and so was I.
Sorry but I don't do follow-the-leader,I do common sense and empathy.
Anyway,off to sleep now.
Had had a tiring day with Rachel that crazy woman,hehe.
Have not had a good rest for the entire week as usual.
I can't wait to meet Bibi and Daddy this weekend !
And I can't wait for dance next week already!
Dance classes and weekedn outings with my love is always the highlights of my week and I look forward to each week!
POsitive thinking,yes I know ;)

2010-01-24T06:19:00.000-08:00

I miss you...

Except that you'll never know how much I do.
<3

2010-01-22T07:56:00.000-08:00

Paris France to Michigan
London town and through Berlin
I cant believe this place I'm in
Everywhere and back again
Porcelain and China Dolls
Give me one and I've seen them all
Got my back against the wall
Wonder where I'll be tomorrow?

This song is nice once you know how to appreciate it.

2010-01-22T06:06:00.000-08:00

I've long stopped believing and have always known that I would be in the center of it one day,& whoever said that,I care anyway?
Ignorance is bliss.
I'm sorry to say this,but I've still got a life to carry on with.

I hate myself for being so nice after everything and anything,this is one point I seriously gotta change.

2010-01-17T05:49:00.000-08:00

Had been having a very tiring 2 weeks of school,dance plus tuitions and I'm already all worn out.
I over-stretched my inner thigh muscle on wednesday during dance and the pain was excruciating,I tell you.
Nevertheless,I thought nothing of it as I often had these pains when I haven't stretched in a long time.
Today(sunday),I spotted a big bruise beneath my inner thighs after our dance showcase for Clapz.
And the other day,one certain malay PE teacher of a pervert was showing off his bruise to us,saying my injury wasn't that bad that I couldn't do PE.
_l_ ,thanks a lot dude,for hitting the nail on the head.
Anyway,I'm pretty much satisfied with life lately.
Everything so far has been somewhat going smoothly for me,and I feel that I'm drifting further and further from the past.
There I was,2 years ago in the middle of no where,deteremined not to be a no life follower like most,but stuck in between and not sure which way to go.
It really surprises me sometimes,how my life has changed.
For the better of course,not once has it been for the worst.
I want to take more dance classes ;)
I already have it all planned in here . * Points to side of head.
Anyway,updateupdate,Missy here found a super duper adorable(not to mention fat) pomeranian wondering around,and it almost ran towards the road.
So I lured it home(sounds so evil) so that it would not get into an mishaps and at the same time,I could put up posters for a dog found around my block in hope to find its owner.
It was a real good boy and it was such a pleasure having him even if it was just for 2 days and a night.
I almost cried to see him go.
But I'm happy for little Mocha,cause he's reunited with his owner again.
I called him Mocha for that short period of his stay at my house of 2 days,cause he didn't seem to react to any random names that I tried to call him but he reacted to Mocha at times.
I found out that his name was actually Tigga/Baby.
Freaking cute ttmx.
Anyway,pics up today.
Not the full set though,have got a lot.
There's some from freaking long ago,when I still had my long fringe before christmas.
I know freaking overdued .
Hahaha.But I've been so busy these few days,you can't blame me.
I had to wake up at 6 today to prepare for the dance showcase today and I don't feel very well,and my legs really hurt.
I don't think I'll be attending school tomorrow,I really need the rest and I'm not feeling very well.
I'll really have to take good care of of my legs on tuesday and to be careful not to put strain on them as I've continuous dance lessons from the afternoon till 9 plus at night :/
Nevertheless,I always do look forward to dance classes,they really make my day though I'd feel very tired after a whole day of lessons and all,but dance is a way for me to release stress and relax.
Okay,not gonna drag any longer and upload random pics from the last few months till now,

Me and Mocha/Tigga,

Look at this fat boy,man,do I miss him.

After Ballet with Debbie last week,
BBZ and Jerome had just given me a lift home and look at my wide smile,after receiving a very nice surprise from BBZ ;)

I walked around like this after modern dance to go for ballet with the tights and all with sneakers,LOL.

Me after supper with Baby and co,was so happy after seeing Bibi :>

Anyone miss my old fringe?

Haha,Santa Claus gonna be eaten by me.

As you can see,I dragged this post from yesterdat till today.
Was too tired to continue uploading yesterday,so here you go.
Loves,

Ps:I'm starting to think I've carried this little game too far.

2010-01-13T04:09:00.000-08:00

I've got a lot to say,so much to type.
I'm not emo;it's the opposite.
I've got so much happy things to share with you guys!
It's just that I've really got to go bathe,wash up and get some rest now.
My muscles are hurting,eyes are about to close.
I shall leave the happy stuff till another day.

Ps:Tagboard is super dead,thank you very much.

2010-01-10T06:31:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Mummy Fong !
I.LOVE.YOU !!! (mulitiply by 1 million)
Pics up soon,it's gonna be another busy week ahead for Janessa.
School,endless dance classes and tuitions.
Homework not done,have not removed my makeup and all yet.
Gonna go pack bag,wash up,pop a sweet in my mouth to gear myself up for the coming week.
I miss my smelly unglam Baby eh,don't know when's the next time I'll be seeing him again.
Sometimes,I think it's a blessing in disguise that I don't get to see him that often,cause abscence makes the heart fonder and without him beside him it makes me cherish him much more.
I wanna make him feel special whenever I'm around him .
I want that smelly ass to know if he don't go bathe and all soon,he's gonna get a spanking from me.
Hehe :)

BLINGZ !

2010-01-08T09:06:00.000-08:00

Janessa and Grace in 2008 <3

Today,or should I say yesterday since its already 1am now, I met my long-lost samphat sister and chris sweetie in town.
I've missed that bitch a lot man !
We bought the same sunglasses and belt,am getting my blingzblingz watch with that woman soon,cause they've run out of stock for the moment :(
It's super gorgeous,have to admit I've got superb taste okay!
Eyed it for super long already.
I wanna blingz everything man,obsessed.
Like wtf,ignore my twitxzx for the blingz.
I'm not a twit okay.
And yes,I'll be seeing you soon Grace Ngiam,soonsoonsoon.

BLINGZ HERE I COME !!
Savemoneysavemoneysavemoney.

Oh and I've got loads of pictures in my phone,I'm just lazy to upload.
Sorry guys!
I've got the stupid CIP crap tomorrow,am turning in now.
Screw their nose man,ruin my weekend,whatever.

2010-01-06T03:55:00.000-08:00

I count myself luckier than others,
though in wealth,health,or in out looks they might seem to be much more fortunate then me.
I count myself luckier than others,
Though what you're going to read may seem simple and easy to achieve or enjoy as long as you've money,but in reality it's much more than that.
I count myself luckier than others,
Cause I know what I want for myself and for the people around me.
I count myself luckier than others,
Cause I get the chance to learn and improve myself on things I have a passion for,and you'll have to realise that not everyone can do that so cherish your chances,think if you'd be able to even develop your interest if you were born in some other deprived country.
I count myself luckier than others,
Cause though I'm coming 17 this year,I realise that I've discovered the meaning of leading a life without caring what the world thinks of you,as long as you have love,a family,a hand full of sincere friends and the opportunity to develop your interests and passions , and not to mention happiness passed on from your loved ones,and you in turn passing them back.Well,heck.This is my life,my decisions my appearance,my actions,so think about that before you speak of it.
I count myself luckier than others,
Cause though they seem to have so many friends around them,they've not discovered what I've truly discovered when I've got a hand-full.
I count myself luckier than others,
Because everyone around me including my teachers expect A's from my standard;it's my honour to work hard towards it for people with high expectaions of me.
I count myself luckier than others,
Because I'm happy with my life now and the good start off for 2009.
I count myself luckier than others,
Cause what I've discovered is something not anyone will find out from themselves anytime soon unless they do some deep reflections and even deeper thinking.
I count myself luckier than others,
Cause I'm a fucking happy girl.

Thank you so much.

XOXO.

2010-01-03T00:19:00.000-08:00

A hauntingly beautiful song.

I know it's cartoon and all,but this show 'Ánastasia' is based on a true story of the last royal russian family,the Romanovs whom were shot and killed together in a small room and the youngest daughter escaping and rumoured to be alive because her bones were not found together in her family's mass grave.
I really love this movie,and I kept watching it over and over again when I was young.
The real story of the Romanovs is really haunting and sad,and so is the song.
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.
.

Well,was out with Baby and co last night till late.
Guys can really argue over what to eat and who eats the most even when everybody's stomach was grumbling in the middle of the night.
Wtf .__.
Anyway,I'mma gonna go watch Anastasia again.
God,I really love that show !

Love like this !

2009-12-31T11:53:00.000-08:00

Am back from steamboat and Medusa for new year eve celebration.
Meeting Christina Sweetheart tomorrow to get school stuffs.
Gonna get some sleep now,it's 3.57am now,01 January 2010.
Like finally,can say 2010 already !
Though my post states other wise,its a blogger problem I guess.They're timings are slower.
Though I'm tired and all now,but....

2010 HERE I COME !!

Ps:Janessa just received her pay today ! It wasn't due till a few days later but still, pleasant surprise in the wee hours of the day when she checked her bank account for fun . ;)

Merry Christmas Babies !

2009-12-30T02:13:00.000-08:00

Hello all.
I know I've not been updating much with pics and all,my blog looks so boring without photos and all now.
I've been really busy lately,had work everyday till christmas eve and have been going out everyday since then.
Today's the only decent day that I'm sitting down comfortably in front my computer,not tired and ready to blog with pics.
So Janessa is very lazy,but here goes ! ;)
Okay,so people whom are not on my facebook don't know this....
But I've cut my fringe ! It really took me lorryloads of courage to do so,like finally.
I've had mixed reactions from others,half good+half bad.
Well,you shall decide for yourself if it's better or not...
Oh fyi,I clipped up the other side of the fringe cause it was starting to get irritating so there's actually hair there,NOT bald.
And I finally had the time to do my brows yesterday,it's not my first time doing threading,but god damn it,the pain is excruciating! Almost like someone taking a knife and scraping your eye brow area.I've a very low pain threshold.
Christina said I look very different when I have my brows done,she says I look better..is it?

Sorry about the blurry pics but these were the only pics I have on hand now for the closeup of the fringe.
Don't worry,you'll get to see it a lot in the future ;)
These other pics are when me,grandmama,sis and mum were eating at a restaurant at Jurong Point yesterday.

My cute grandmama on candid,

My posts are gonna be all jumbled up and not according to the earliest.

Well lets talk about X'mas,did you all enjoy your x'mas this year?
Well,I enjoyed mine really much ;)
I spent christmas eve with my cutest love,BBZ and his friends after work at Medusa.
BBZ went to my work place to meet me cause he knew I was working till late and he thought that I had brought extra clothes long to change.
But I didn't,cause I hate going out after work,I feel so sticky and uncomfortable I just have to bathe when I go out,especially for christmas !
So I headed home to take a quick bath and to change into a new set of clothes.
I didn't expect anyone to be at home cause both my siblings were at my uncle's house celebrating christmas and mummy was in KL for work and would only be back the next day.
So imagine my surprise when I came out of the lift and saw prycey doodles running out to greet me,and my house door was open.
At that moment I was like , "Wtf,who let pryce out?Is there a burgular?" , and I hurried to my door step ,preparing myself for the worst as I didn't expect anyone to be home.
The sight that greeted me when I looked into my house was my dearest mummy sitting on her favourite chair smoking carefreely.
I was like,LOL WHY ARE YOU BACK MUM,AND WHY ARE YOU SMOKING IN THE LIVING ROOM ?!
Then my mum was smiling cheekily at me and said,"Aiyah,also nobody at home so I smoke in the living room lo."
My mum so cute right.
LOL.
Turns out my mum took an early flight back to Singapore,loaded with gifts and all ready to come back and surprise us all.
But when she returned home,the whole house was empty except for prycey boy happily greeting her with barks and trying to scratch my mum's feet.
Poor mum.
Well,lucky I came back,if not she would have to save those surprises for the next day and surpress her excitement of giving the Christmas presents to us.
No lah,actually we're the lucky ones cause we received presents from her ;)
Hahaha.
I was in a really cranky mood cause of some reasons and my mum kept asking me why did I look so upset.
After telling her,she smiled and me and said,"Can I make you happy?"
Then since I was in a cranky mood,i replied her "No !"
"You confirm or not?"
She then took out a Esprit bag and told me to open it.....
TA DAH !

I literally screamed(thank God our neighbours still have not moved in) and jumped onto her for a koala bear hug !(Looking at how skinny my mum is,it was a miracle that she did not collapse.)
My mum has good taste right?
Shi Ning said that day that my mum is very cool.
Wahahaha.
The way she wear and walk that day at the flea when she accompany us....like in the matrix like that.
Cool ttmx one !
I screamed even more when I saw the price tag,$200 plus dollars !
To others I know $200plus may not seem much to scream for as a present for christmas,
but that's cause you're more well off/you're an only child/you've got 2 parents supporting you.
My mum is a single mum,and she supports all 3 of us siblings,one dog and one maid alone cause my Dad currently does not have the capability to contribute.
I mean,If you've never been in my shoes leading my life,you don't know how it feels and what it's like to be me.
Some kids get Iphones for christmas,that's because they're more well off and can afford an Iphone without thinking much.
But I don't envy those kids cause that's their life,and which situation's more worthy,when your mum cannot really afford it but gets something really great for you or when one is loaded and can live in a slightly above average lifestyle then others and don't need to think much before getting something expensive for their kid because they can afford it much?
For me,this is a lot.
Thank you mummy ,I love it a lot! ;)
Mummy drove me down to Tanjong Pagar cause she was afraid that there would be no trains for me to take as it was so late already.
She's so nice right ! Friends whom knew me since last time would know that my mum would be the last person to fetch me to/allow me to go to places like Medusa in the middle of the night surrounded with mostly guys.
Cause she know's Baby and she trusts him a lot and she knows Baby will protect me no matter what ;)
When we reached and I hugged her in the car before I left,Baby came forward with a spray intending to spray mum with foam but my mum predicted it and was like " Don't spray me ! "
The joy of christmas,with family and friends ;)
So when my mum left already,all of them went,"Janessa Baby,Merry Christmas !!! " , then they sprayed me all over with foam right outside Medusa .____.
I always kena targetted one,every year also the same.
Wtf right.
In case you were wondering why they were all calling my 'Janessa Baby',it's because that was my name under Baby's contact a long time ago and they all like to keep disturbing me about it.
They've been disturbing us with 'forever love' since we've been together.
LOL right.
Didn't get home till 6 plus in the morning,eye lids were already closed when in the cab..
Oh yes,
This is Baby's christmas present to me...

Like you,I was kind of shocked because it looked kind of ordinary and all when I opened the wrapper from the side.
But when I took out the whole wrapper.... and I smiled and smiled and smiled till my mouth hurt.

It was all Baby's idea,SO CUTE RIGHT MY BOYFRIEND?!
This is what I call,not expensive but full of the person's love,the very idea to make the person receiving it smile :>
The bling on the hearts were originally not there,MummyPang blinged it on for me before wrapping it(she wraps wonderfully by the way! ),so its the one and only piece,you can't find it anywhere else !
So original.
Hahaha.
Mummy Pang is really nice,she surprised me at work the other day when it was really busy and hectic,and bought drinks for me !
She really made my day as it was such a pleasant surprise that i was beaming the entire day !
But I was slightly unoriginal a bit cause I can't get the things that my boyfriend want's when I haven't save up enough money yet.
I got him his favourite Hugo Boss perfume,the one that I love smelling on him.
I forgot to take a picture before giving it to him,so no pictures of it here.
Hehe.
But I've got the picture of the present I gave mummy :>
It's a perfume, I forgot its called what Lanvin something,it's not Gucci or Anna Sui but it's branded all the same and costs the same too.
Apparently its very popular especially for working women,I myself like it very much too ;)
So pretty right,

Thank you everyone for your presents !

Haha,I actually predicted that I wouldn't have any presents this year cause Baby is such a noob with presents some times;)
I LOVELOVELOVE YOU MANY TIMES OVER !
And Ps:I still owe Shi Ning her present.Shi Ning,I'll get one for you asap okay?Thank God we live really near. Hahaha.

Went out with all my Precious Thots colleagues at work on christmas,was really fun and we were all full of crap and laughing like nobody's business ! I'm lazy to elaborate la ;)I've still got some of the pics in my phone but I'm lazy to use my laptop to upload it as I'm using the desktop now,so I'll just be posting the pics that Xiao Kai and Gwen has posted up in FB for now !
Oh yeah,and we had this picture about standing accordingly to the tallest to the shortest.
Since Me and Christina were both wearing heels we were quite tall that day.
Hahahah,and Gwen-gwen don't wear heels also so super tall,if that day we never wear heels its like going out with a super model manzxz.

Christina and Gwen-gwen,

Me and Xiao Kai (This is his signature act cute pose that we all like to disturb him about,I'm not acting cute I'm just distubing him !)

Me and Christina,

Shopped the whole day with our legs aching like hell.
Luckily for Baby who gave me a ride home :)

26 December,
We were supposed to go to Sentosa,but last minute Shi Ning couldn't go cause she had fever so we postponed it.
Poor Shi Ning :(
So we decided to catch a movie and go out.
Wanted to watch some shows but all cant decide if not is no timings if not is full so we went to watch the princess and the frog .___.
Whatever,we're still kids at heart.
LOL.
We had fun nevertheless,like we always do ! ;)
Go out with them you can really laugh like no tomorrow.
Anyway,we took Neoprints ! You should close up on the picture to see the wordings and rubbish we put on the neoprints,it's freaking funny one ,especially Xiao Kai,keep getting disturbed by us in the pics.
Theres one pic,Christina wrote "sisters forever"and I added "+ one extra Jason".
LOL.
I never write anything else ,I only decorate decorate decorate,decorate till everybody's head got a lot of decoration.
Hahahahaha.

The second pic's fucking funny lorh,look at jason.like some act cute beng like that.Hahaha,I decorated that part !

This is GwenGwen(our nickname for her ),

Hahah,the stupid cock eye thing Gwne is trying to do to Xiao Kai,

My turn,I look so serious...

See the height difference.

Long time since I've posted such a long one like this ;)

Anyway,it's the last day of 2009 tomorrow!
I wonder how will next year be like?
It seems like just some time ago that I was saying goodbye to 2008 on my blog !
Haha.
Well,shall leave the rest in God's hands.
Will be out with Baby and co tmr till late.
Till then,
Loves ! <3

2009-12-27T09:46:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to think that the whole "Must pass 5 subjects total under 19 points" criteria is just to fool us students that N level is gonna be much harder than it originally was.
I think I've over estimated the N'level paper,it's supposedly easier then sec 3 papers.
According to N'level previous takers that I've talked to,they could have passed with flying colours with their eyes closed.
Whatever,it's best to overestimate cause that way it'll push you even harder to do better ;)

Ohoh,and pictures soon !

2009-12-26T10:25:00.001-08:00

Mummy and Baby,hope you like your x'mas presents,brought with love from my hardwork and waking up early everyday(I love sleeping in till late).
Still got mei's and Jon's present to get.
There goes my pay,but worth the smiles on every one of their faces.
Sorry for the belated gifts ;)

XOXO,
Ps;Merry X'mas everyone,I've really been enjoying myself these past few days,X'mas this year rockzzzzzzzzz :)

2009-12-21T07:31:00.000-08:00

Officially,crazy over all things ballet.
Shit I can't stop this obsession.
Oh man.

2009-12-20T10:31:00.000-08:00

Leo:
"Although you are outgoing, spontaneous, warm-hearted and straightforward, you are too trusting and generous to people you like and love. You are not good judges of character and are inclined to treat your close ones as perfect beings incapable of doing anything wrong. Because no one can possibly live up to this kind of expectation, you are often disappointed.If the Leo sometimes loses his temper he may even disassociate the people from his life.The Leo is prone to jealousy and is extremely possessive of his loved ones"

Some things can't be retrieved once its lost.
Sick of it all.

2009-12-20T06:15:00.000-08:00

Am so addicted to this song now.
The person spelt the title wrongly though.

2009-12-19T08:02:00.000-08:00

Some other overdued pics still stuck in my phone,ony uploaded the pics from my camo to the com.
So here you go,Liying's birthday post.
PS:I look v.pale in the pics,no idea whyyyyyyyy.lack of sleep I guess,eyes weren't in normal condition;small and puffy ttmx like nobody's business.
PPS:I'm not wearing coloured lens and have not done so in the longest time .Contemplating if I should get,but I'm broke for now :(
PPPS:I'm too lazy to upload all of the pics,those who want the rest of the photos ask from me in msn ;)

Me and SiHui,

Asthina and SiHui,

New gay group,

Gay-er,

Me and Asthina again,

Oh yes,and I'm selling this dress,interested buyers drop me an email :)

I miss BBZ,he's in camp :(
I WANT MY OWN HELMET ! :(

2009-12-18T08:33:00.000-08:00

Hey babies.
I'm so sorry for the lack of updates,I've been busy with work lately and stayed over at Baby's crib last night,thus haven't had the time to upload any pics/update.
And for those waiting for the pics from the birthday you gotta hold on a little okay?
I'll try to upload them tomorrow if I'm free :)
Sososo sorry about the birthday pics ya guys.
Promise I'll blog soon ! ;)

2009-12-13T08:25:00.001-08:00

My maid is officially out of the country and to her homeland for more than two weeks to visit her family.
We have to share the responsibilty of doing the house chores,
BUT THIS SPELLS FREEDOM BAYBEH !
Heh hehs,only people whom know me well may understand why I'm saying that.
But still,she's going back next year so we've gotta get used to it too.
My mum is staying home more to help with the chores and nags more but,what's there not to love?
Oh and I can't meet BBZ next week,he's got camp!
Wtfwtfwtf.
But oh well,one week only ;)
Ahhhh,and BBZ is finally getting his goddamn bike on tuesday,don't know drag how long already lor!
Zzzzzzz.

2009-12-07T09:51:00.000-08:00

A few minutes ago,I was thinking how imperfect life can be,even for the people whom we think have it all going for them in this world.
Thinking that life in shows/dramas appear so much more dream-like and something everyone yearns to have than real life in Singapore.
After receiving Baby's call just a while ago,I thought to myself that,maybe life isn't that perfect for anybody but we can make the best out of it while we still can.
Will mistakes in the past trap you in your entire life?
That's a question I can't answer myself.

.
.
But I'm glad I have my boy with me,
will have and always will do,I'm confident of that.
<3

2009-12-06T06:04:00.000-08:00

Christmas is coming and the place where I work at is playing the same christmas CD over and over again everyday and I'm sorta tired of them.
But since christmas is coming,I've decided to share some of the nice ones :>

I have to work on Christmas Eve !
Damnnnn.

2009-12-05T11:15:00.000-08:00

Missy here is bored and wants to change hairstyle.
I can't sleeep and my thoughts are drifting off everywhere.
Plus I don't know if I should rebond my hair again cause school is starting in less then a month and I'll have to tie the damn thing up.
But my hair is boring to me already manzxz,sick of looking at my hair and especially my fringe.
So sick of it.
Really, SICK.OF.IT.
But everybody says that this hairstyle suits me and advices me to think thoroughly about it before I decide on anything.
Surprisingly(NOT), BBZ got so fed up with all my whinings that he's telling me to change hairstyle so that I'll stop my crap.
Gahhhhhhh.
Okay,end of topic for now.

Oh yeah Darling BBZ,next time you act like you die again I'll tickle you non-stop,
Let you die from laughing !
*Evil laughter.
Heh heh hehs :>
BBZ trying to act like those drama hero/male potaganist can make me laugh like there's no tomorrow manzxz.
Hahahahah,we were both awfully gay ttmx today ,both trying to act different roles and doing it in an even more drama+comedic way.
"NO ! Don't die ! Don't die ah ! " + dramatic sobbing continues and shaking the 'dead person'.
For Baby I just tickle him he'll come back from the dead already.
Walaoeh,I can't take it anymore la,I wanna explode into peals of laughter already.
Hahahahahhahaha.
Wah damn,I really can't take it anymore,I better stop typing if not I'm gonna start being hyper from all the laughing and I won't be able to sleep anymore.
Heh hehs.

Miss ya, elf boy.
Elfs are CUTE ! <3
Oh yeah,Elf boy promised that he'll introduce me to Joe Cheng and his pals.
Hahahahahaha.
Shit,getting hyper again.

2009-12-03T04:09:00.000-08:00

Over her again.
Yes,the word's again.
Thanks for putting me into a confused state for approximately more than half of today.

Pretty Boy.

2009-12-01T08:17:00.001-08:00

Fucking Gay.

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Whaddya think?

Nominee for the pretty boy role in a new drama,please vote.

2009-11-28T22:29:00.000-08:00

Hello,my oh-so-dead blog.
I've just woken up and using the commie now cos I'm so bored.
I might be heading to Ikea with Daddy later though,gotta get some stuffs for my room.

Oh and I swear Lee Hyori is damn hot.
Ps,She's the girl singing you go girl on my blog song.(I'm not a lesbian going around saying girls are hot but she really is.)
But Korea is notorious for their plastic surgery,so it might most probably be another successful story and result of going under the knife.
Nevertheless,I'm still digging her look.
She's not the fairest snow-white on the face of this earth,but you don't need to be fair to be considered hot,(Ps,fair-skinned people have a much higher chance of getting freckles and pigmentation of the skin earlier than fellow normal skinned/darker skinned people.Caucasians are a good example.)
Though on another thought,are successful plastic surgery end-products considered beauty?
I'm just curious how other women on this planet think,are the mindsets of the women in this world slowly changing to thinking that plastic surgery is a form of beauty worth flaunting?
Is drastically changing your body to the point of no return,actually counted as a sin,to God and probably any other form of belief and religion?
This is what I'm always thinking,cause my mum always tells me:" God gives you everything that you have now.If you're not deformed in a way that people actually gives you weird looks,why go for plastic surgery and change your self? "
I don't know,maybe a lot of people will be cursing me/arguing back with me on this point,but in fact I'm not really against plastic surgery.
I just think its a recipe for a fake,plastic you,whether its changing one thing or ten things physically about yourself.
Just something to think about.
Though guys often say it's okay to have plastic surgery,but you'll gradually get to know it's so as long it's not their own girl.
Whatever it is,natural beauty still has my vote.*Winks.

Off to bathe now.
Ciaos.

2009-11-25T05:18:00.000-08:00

Hi allllll.
I'm gonna post lots of pictures and not type much.(Some snatched from Bethia's bloggy.)
Oh yeah,and before uploading the pics, K SUITE IS THE SHIT MANZX!
Too bad that the pink room was taken up that day.
Sofa bed and all,service is good and food is quite okay but comes with a huge bill.
Oh yes,just in case Bethia's gonna kill me for posting certain pictures,just take note its cause she looks friggin cute in them thats why.
Hahahahaha :>
It's at Iluma by the way,for people who have no idea where K Suites is.
Heh heh,Janessa-haters who are gonna show off to me that they always visit the place that I've just praised after this,we should know where they're getting their ideas from :>
Only applicable to Janessa-haters bytheway.

Don't believe that the original picture's background is fucking ugly?See this original version for yourself. Its the advertisement put in the lift and cause the whole block is still new,they haven't take out the cardboard stuff and ugly advertisements yet.

This was randomly taken by her I guess,

I forgot what the middle dish was called,but it was deeeeeee-leeee-cious!

Okay I'm doneeee.
Lovelove <3

2009-11-24T08:23:00.000-08:00

Oh fuck.I just spent like one and a half hours writing one damn whole post and the whole thing just disappeared.
Oh fuck it manzxz.
I don't care,I'm not posting about K suites today,it's fucking 2am now and I'm fucking lazy to repost.
Oh what the motherfuckingshit.
Anyway,back from Ballet and the soles of my feet hurt much from doing countless pirouettes.
Caught a minature and more adorable version of santa but in stitch version.
Hung all my stitches on my christmas tree as soon as I got back from dance,and snapped lots of photos.
Am vair,vair lazy to post all the photos so just make do with this 2.(hahaha,me and my obssession of my ballerina-style hair.)
Oh and BBD said I look very ballerina today.
I'm such an easily contented girl man,yes I am. :>
And oh yes,regarding the very little editing of my new profile picture,I'll address that matter soon(in case some of you think I'm a perfecto wannabe);because I'm absolutely NOT FAKE.
It's because the background of this paticular photo is absolutely fugly ttmx,I just blurred the edges of the photo.
I don't have the habit of editing my pictures but this issue shall be left to how it is till another day.

PS/:Absolutely in love with this song and couldn't help myself but to put it as my blog song.

2009-11-23T04:53:00.000-08:00

Just a thought for someone whom might not even remember me,but have brushed shoulders with me once in this life;

You fucking deserved it,
Speak of karma and here it is,comin' right back at cha .
I still can't believe you're getting such a huge blow of a wake-up call.

PS:It ain't my business but you're even impossibly unbearable from afar.
PPS:BBZ you can tell me off or whatsoever,but I'm still posting this.

Please for goodness sake,don't anyone else misunderstand if it's god damn it not you.

2009-11-21T09:12:00.000-08:00

Well,since Baby loves both these songs(especially the first one),I'm gonna put them as my blog songs and dedicate them to him :>
In case you're still in a totally blur state,I added songs into my playlist,though I'm not totally crazy over them,but putting them there cause Baby loves them so.
ALL FOR YOU BAYBEH ! ;)
Went to town for a slice of shopaholic heaven today,not the craziest shopping session but got my essentials.Well for now,that is .
And guess what !
I don't know is this luck or fate but,
I CAUGHT 2 UBER CUTE STITCHES IN ONE GO,AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!
And like whatthemotherfucker,both are IDENTICAL PIECES ,AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!
Okay,I didn't really catch it,I asked Baby to catch it for me,just like how I asked another person to catch for me the other 2 stitches the other time.
And I love you BBZ !:>
But that's not the point!
The point is that where can hengheng both times the same?
And the thing is that me and BBD talked about the other day!
BBD,this piece reserve for you again!
Don't say I never treat you good.
Hahaahaha :>
Oh,and I forgot to mention that me and BBD both got Audrey Hepburn tote bags for Ballet class,with the first stitch hanging from it.
Both are motherfucking cute!
Will take pictures of it and upload it soon.
Can't wait to see BBD's face when I pass it to her !
Though I think she'll expect it already,I'm writing it on my blog and I had messaged her earlier.

TEEHEE ! ;)

2009-11-20T07:39:00.000-08:00

Is it better to be everything to someone,or be a little less than that?

2009-11-20T01:13:00.000-08:00

Oh,and I've finally lifted my lazy little bum to make the effort to relink people.
I lost the other links already,please do tag me if you're linking me and I haven't linked you ;)
Okay,off to watch show now.

2009-11-20T00:24:00.000-08:00

Pictures from the other day after Ballet.(Snatched the pictures from BBD's bloggy:> )
Credits:BBD !
Ps:/Pictures are really unglam cause of the fact of no makeup and also cause we were really tired and sweaty after Ballet.(And yes,BBD is finally showing her face on my blog)
After dance,

Still have got a lot to catch up but,
Ballet class is THE LOVE !<3

Ps:Pictures from K suite will be posted another time or probably later if I have the time :>
Oh yeah,and I so wanna go watch the swan lake performance but no fucking money! :<
Who wanna sponsor me(cos I don't want to spend BBZ's monehh :>)?

2009-11-18T23:47:00.000-08:00

Heyloooooooo!
I'm at K Suite now posting.
The place is absolutely gorgeous,it's even nicer than my own house!
There's even a computer and internet connection in our room.(Or i wouldn't even be here posting)
Does not come cheap too.
Hmmmm.
I'll post pictures about it,as soon as I get home.
But seriously,pictures do not do it justice.
I miss BBZ !!
Muackmuackmuack BBZ<3

2009-11-18T08:22:00.000-08:00

I.CAN'T.WAIT.FOR.NEXT.DANCE.CLASS.

Practicing at home in front of the mirror almost everyday to get it all right,aiming for perfection.
I'm not crazy or anything,I just want to feel that same happiness and enjoyment I got from ballet from once upon a time.
The first ever distinction I had chanced upon in my entire young life had been the greatest confirmation and encouragement that this is,my kinda thing.
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Wtf,me and my motivational speech again.
I should sign up to be a public speaker or some sort.
Ptffffff.
Crap ! Ignore me,I just HAD to type that motivational piece of shit.
Okay,not really shit but just expressing myself.
I'm rambling on again.
Okay stop ittttttt.

Singing K with Bethia and co tmr ;)

Lovezxzx.
And PS: BBZ,miss you muchhhhhhhhhh :(